Little moments

Tonight, as I was putting Lucy to bed I stopped. She hasn't been feeling very well this afternoon. She has a small fever and was feeling very sleepy. She was lying down on my shoulder and just so relaxed. So I stopped. I stood there by her crib and just snuggled her. I let her lay on me and just held her close. I said a silent prayer of thanksgiving. That moment right there is the reason I became a mommy. The feeling of her sweet little arms laying on my chest. The sweet sound of her breathing. The complete trust she has in me. I know she won't always be this small. She won't always want me to tuck her in at night. Or maybe she will. I hope she will. 

I have been really trying to take the time to enjoy the girls while they are tiny. I think I am actually pretty good about taking in the moments. I try so hard to remember that these are the good old days. Even with all of that effort, the time seems to be slipping through my fingers like sand. As the girls get older life just keeps getting better. But on nights like this I am just so grateful that they are still small. They are still mine to hold and cuddle and protect. They trust me so implicitly. They love me so unconditionally. I am truly blessed. I am trying every day to be the kind of role model in words and actions that they need. I love my sweet girls. I can't wait to have more. (Ok, I can wait a little bit.)